The Good and The Bad

Wow. I am such a shmuck. It has been WAY too long since I last posted!

I have good news, and I have bad news.

Bad news: I LOATHE my job. Every day is torture. I'm not going in to detail, but just know that no matter what you're doing between the hours of 8AM and 4PM MST Monday-Thursday and Saturday, it's better than what I'm doing.

Good news: I don't have to work there that much longer. Jed got a job in the Dallas/Ft Worth area!! He's going to be designing helicopters. We're moving the beginning week of June!! We couldn't be happier!

I Believe

I got this in an email from my dad. I thought it was good enough to share.

I Believe... That just because two people argue, It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe... That we don't have to change friends if We understand that friends change.

I Believe.... That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe... That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe... That you can do something in an instant> That will give you heartache for life.

I Believe.... That it's taking me a long time To become the person I want to be.

I Believe... That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words. It may just be the last time you see them.

I Believe.... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe.... That we are responsible for what We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe... That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe.... That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe.... That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe.... That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe... That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe.... That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had And what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe.... That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others. Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe... That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe.... That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, But, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe... That you shouldn't be so eager to find Out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe.... Two people can look at the exact same Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe... That your life can be changed in a matter of Hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe... That even when you think you have no more to give, When a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe... That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe... That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon..

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything.----they just make th most of everything they have.

TWINS!!

One of my best friends is having TWINS!! I couldn't be more happy for her! Congratulations Meana! ;)

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for my job.
I am thankful for Jed's job.
I am thankful that I'm done with training.
I am thankful that I have books to read at work.
I am thankful that the people at work are nice.
I am thankful that my first day on the floor went well.
I am thankful for my car.
I am thankful to be able to watch the inspiring people involved in the Olympics.

Friday Foto Fix

Super Bowl Sunday!

Davin, Aubrey, & Preston Jarvinen; Nikki & Sam Stewart; Megan & Seth Burke; some people I don't know; in front: Jed; Phil Cho

Monday Memoirs

Friday - We went over to my friend Jen's condo for a house-warming/birthday party. It was good to see her again - it had been a while. Happy Birthday Jen!

Saturday - We went to Tucanos for lunch with my birthday BOGO coupon. It was so good!
Then we went to the temple. It was so nice, and exactly what I needed.
We had Emily and her cousin over for game/movie night - so fun!

Sunday - After church, we took a much needed nap. Did I mention that we hung out with Emily last night? Yeah, that's always a late night (and I love it!).
Then we went to the Burkes' for the Super Bowl! It was so much fun! Jed was rooting for the Colts, so I decided to go for the Saints - and they won!!
We had a really great day!

Bucket List

Bucket List

(X) Shot a gun

(X) Gone on a blind date
(X) Skipped school
( ) Watched someone die
(X) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Alaska
( ) Been to Cuba
( ) Been to Europe

(XXXXX) Been to Las Vegas
(XX) Been to Mexico
(X) Been to Florida
(X) Been on a plane
(XX) Been on a Cruise Ship
( ) Served on a Jury
(X) Been lost

(X) Been on the opposite side of the country
(X) Gone to Washington, DC
(X) Swam in the Ocean

(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played Cops and Robbers
(X) Played Cowboys and Indians
(X) Recently colored with crayons
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with coins, only coins
(X) Made a prank phone call as a kid
(X) Laughed until some beverage came out of your nose
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(X) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(X) Watched the sunrise with someone
(X) Blown bubbles
(X) Gone ice skating

(X) Gone skiing
(X) Camped out under the stars
( ) Seen something so beautiful that it took your breath away -what does this even mean?
(X) Are or have been married

( ) Have children

(X) Have a pet

(X) Been skinny dipping outdoors

(X) Been fishing
(X) Been boating
(X) Been water skiing
(X) Been hiking
( ) Been camping in a trailer/RV -that's not camping
(X) Flown in a small 4-seater airplane
( ) Flown in a glider
( ) Been flying in a helicopter
( ) Been flying in a hot air balloon
( ) Been bungee jumping
(X) Gone to a drive-in movie
(X) Done something that should have killed you
(X) Done something that you will regret for the rest of your life
( ) Been to Africa

( ) Been to China
( ) Been to India

( ) Been to Korea
( )Ever ride an elephant

( ) Ever ride a camel
(X) Ever eaten just cookies for dinner
(X) Ever been on T.V.
(X) Ever steal any traffic signs
(X) Ever been in a car accident
(X) Have a nickname?

Favorite Drink: Dr. Pepper

Is your car a 2 door or a 4 door? 4
Favorite number? 4

Favorite movie? Center Stage

Favorite Christmas Carol? Silent Night

Favorite holiday? Christmas

Favorite dessert? Turtle Cheesecake

Furthest place you will send this message? Who knows?

Tragic Irony

When I was a kid, and living at home, I fought with my siblings all the time. I mean all the time. Peaceful, loving encounters were few and far between (or maybe this is just how I remember it...) and I didn't really want anything to do with my family.

But now...
Now that I'm older, now that I'm wiser, now that I don't live near my siblings, I would give anything to be able to spend every day with them again. I miss them so much and yearn to see them more often.

The grass is always greener... :\

Monday Memoirs

Thursday (My Birthday!!) - Jed pretended to go to school and then woke me up with breakfast in bed! It was a great way to start the day!
I brought him Pita Pit for lunch.
We went bowling and then to PF Changs for dinner. And then to top of the day, we watched Julie & Julia. That movie is SO cute!

Friday - I applied to a bunch of jobs! Hopefully one will pan out.

Saturday - I woke up at 3am with what I thought was food poisoning. I spent most of the day between my bed and the toilet.
I was feeling better by nighttime, so we went ahead and had my birthday dinner at Red Robin. Even though we had to be at two different tables, it was great to see everyone! I had a great birthday dinner!

Sunday - I woke up feeling a little ill again, but not nearly as bad as the day before. Primary was the worse ever. We had a visiting girl who was insanely hyper, a handicapped child who has a "helper" stay in the room with him, and the helper's daughter is one of our students, and she got really clingy with her mom being in the room. Plus, the helper kept telling us how to run our class and how to do everything. It was so frustrating.

Monday - Jed woke up with the "food poisoning" virus that I had had. He tried to go to work, but came home shortly after leaving. He slept it off and is feeling much better.

Friday Foto Fix

This is my Aunt Debbie, my Grams, and me at my birthday lunch on Tuesday. So fun!

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful that today is my birthday!
I am thankful that Jed skipped school (for the first time ever) to surprise me with breakfast in bed.
I am thankful that I was able to spend Christmas with Jed's family.
I am thankful that I was able to visit my family after Christmas.
I am thankful that I made it home easily even though I was on standby.
I am thankful to be home with Jed.
I am thankful for the library and the book I was able to read over the Christmas break.
I am thankful that I was able to hang out with my friend Emily on Monday.
I am thankful that I got to go to lunch with my Grams and my Aunt Debbie on Tuesday.
I am thankful for the warm wishes and "happy birthday" messages I've gotten from friends and family - I am so loved. :)

Five Facts

1. My favorite part of winter is kicking the snow crud out from my tire well. That is all. I hate snow.
2. I always drive with the windows down when I have the chance. Usually Jed hates it.
3. I LOVE cantaloupe - I can seriously eat one by myself. In one day. In one sitting.
4. I don't cry when I cut onions.
5. I never sing in the shower, never have. The car is a whole different story...


...AND my birthday is tomorrow. Here's to another great year! 24!

Monday Memoirs

Thursday - I got home from work and Jed had deep-cleaned the apartment! I was thrilled - what a great surprise! Thanks Jed! You are so awesome!!

Friday - I got so much done! I mailed Christmas stuff off at the post office, I returned some stuff, I exchanged some stuff, I bought the last of Jed's Christmas presents, and I made a yummy dinner in the crock pot.

Saturday - I worked, Jed studied. I am so glad that I'm leaving this job. I cannot stand my coworker. And the worst part is that it's just him and me on Saturdays. I kept a log of all the annoying things he did/said. That made my day a little better. ;)

Sunday - After church, I took a long nap and Jed went to school to study. Later that night, we went to the Pages' for our weekly game night!! They had another couple over and we had such a blast hanging out with them!

I QUIT!

I put in my two weeks this week. My last day is Monday, December 21st - the day we fly out for Christmas. I was already a wreck - hour-long commute each way, being gone from my house for 10.5 hours, 5x a week, having to park a city block away from work and walk in the snow, not seeing Jed very often, not having a social life, working every Saturday, having the same conversation over and over again with different people, etc - before the two and a half hour commute this past Tuesday. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. I came in to work in tears and told my boss that I was done.

I was mentally and emotionally drained and I don't feel like I would have made it through the winter without seeping into a deep, dark depression. I had to do it for my own well-being (and Jed's well-being as well). I have not been a good wife or friend recently. I haven't been a good student because I haven't had the energy to do anything when I got home and I can't do homework at work.

It's just not worth it to me to stay. The odds are stacked against me. Hopefully I will find something soon after the new year. Thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated at this time. Thanks everybody!

Monday Memoirs - Late Style

Thursday (Thanksgiving) - We did a marathon Thanksgiving and went to three different places. First we went to my dad's side's Thanksgiving. They had a Connect Four Championship (kinda random) and... Jed won first place!! We got a one-night's stay at the Radisson! I'm so excited to use that!
Next on the list was Grams' house. She fed us butternut squash soup and brownies until our eyes popped out. It was good to see her and Walter. I'm glad we got to visit them.
Then we went to Jed's aunt's house. We talked for a few hours and it was really fun to see that side of the family - it had been a while.

Friday - Black Friday. I had a booth at a boutique in downtown Provo. I sold cookie mixes for my dad's famous oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I had a great time - I was sitting next to some great people who I am so glad I met. Sales weren't super high because the traffic was kind of slow - I think people went home to nap from their early morning ventures or else they were at the movies or something. We're doing another show in the spring. I think that one will go really well.
That night, I got this strange second wind and dragged Jed to the gym with me at 10pm. First time in months. It felt good to get on the treadmill again.

Saturday - After work, I met up with Jed and the Pages for dinner at Texas Roadhouse. It was fun to go out with them and their cute kids. We also saw the Burkes while we were there - small world.
We went back to the Pages' house after dinner and had a game night! So fun! I think we left around 2am. :)

Sunday - I was sick, sick, sick. I stayed home from church and Jed had to do nursery all by himself. :\
I got myself a carton of OJ and some pills and went up to campus with Jed to study.
...and then I was too sick to go to work on Monday. The End.