Saturday, December 12, 2009


I put in my two weeks this week. My last day is Monday, December 21st - the day we fly out for Christmas. I was already a wreck - hour-long commute each way, being gone from my house for 10.5 hours, 5x a week, having to park a city block away from work and walk in the snow, not seeing Jed very often, not having a social life, working every Saturday, having the same conversation over and over again with different people, etc - before the two and a half hour commute this past Tuesday. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. I came in to work in tears and told my boss that I was done.

I was mentally and emotionally drained and I don't feel like I would have made it through the winter without seeping into a deep, dark depression. I had to do it for my own well-being (and Jed's well-being as well). I have not been a good wife or friend recently. I haven't been a good student because I haven't had the energy to do anything when I got home and I can't do homework at work.

It's just not worth it to me to stay. The odds are stacked against me. Hopefully I will find something soon after the new year. Thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated at this time. Thanks everybody!


J'Nette said...

good for you!!! no amount of anything is worth that sort of torture!!! it isn't fair to you or your hubby! Especcially when you should be doing all sorts of fun stuff before the bunchkins come along! Hurray for you!

emi-jo said...

you're wondeful, ali!! good luck with whatever wonderful things Heavenly Father has in store for you - you deserve better than a job like that! :)

Vallen Family said...

I hope you find a job fast. Ya know Ben works in Provo, usually they are hiring.